THERE'S BEEN ALOT OF UPSETTING, VERY UPSETTING THINGS THAT I CAN'T ALLOW TO HAPPEN ANYMORE. I HAVE TO BE LIKE A SOLDIER AND MARCH AWAY. 'CAUSE I'M VERY DELICATE IN A LOT OF WAYS, AND THINGS GET TO ME, AND EFFECT ME… IN A VERY ADVERSE MANNER. I DON'T NEED THAT; DON'T NEED THAT. I FEEL NOW LIKE MINUS SOMETHING, YOU KNOW, I feel faded; I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'M ALL HERE. I THINK IT'LL COME BACK; I HOPE IT'LL COME BACK. THERE'S ALOT OF COLOR MISSING, FROM THE WAY I FEEL, AND MY FACE, AND, YOU KNOW, JUST EVERYTHING. THERE'S SOME KIND OF ZEST, OR… LIFE, YOU KNOW, THAT SEEMS TO BE FADED TEMPORARILY, BECAUSE I'VE BEEN SO DRAINED, EMOTIONALLY, BY A NUMBER OF THINGS. THAT HAS TO SLOWLY BUILD BACK UP, AND THEN IT HAS TO BE KEPT SUSTAINED; IT CANNOT BE ALLOWED TO BE DIMINISHED.